139. The Fisherman (52)

After our brunch date, The Fisherman kept in regular contact, telling me he "just had to kiss me again". I was less excited but keen to see if he lived up to his reviews. Two nights later he arrived as scheduled on my doorstep with a bottle of good red wine in his hand, and gave…Read more 139. The Fisherman (52)

133. An email from…..?

I was waiting for a train and flicked through my phone to pass the time. Scanning my emails, I saw a message from a person I didn’t know. Gulp. Could it be Mrs DWHNA/Toolman?  My heart raced as I touched the screen, peering at the message sideways, looking for confirmation wanting to be both wrong and…Read more 133. An email from…..?

129. The Captain (52)

The Captain’s profile on the swinger’s site was much like mine.  He seemed to be looking for the same thing as me but I hadn’t paid him any attention, based on his age. I saw he had looked at me a few times and I had acknowledged his “likes” but I was busy responding to…Read more 129. The Captain (52)

128. The Mauritian (part 2)

The Mauritian and I had made tentative plans to catch up over the weekend following our first, quite successful, date. Tentative as in; “Are you free next Saturday?” “Yes.” “We should catch up.  Lets talk during the week.” Translation: “I think you are a nice person and quite fuck-worthy” “Thanks, me too.” “Well if I…Read more 128. The Mauritian (part 2)

127. Superman (47)

He was one of the first guys who messaged me on the Swingers Site. We talked easily and I found myself smiling whenever we chatting on text. He was a separated father of four grown kids who lived about thirty minutes away.  We discovered many things about each other and I was enjoying an adult conversation…Read more 127. Superman (47)

125. The Gentleman – part 2

I knew it wasn’t right.  And I knew this was going to hurt him.  And it made me feel like shit. The Gentleman had sent me a couple of texts, hoping I’d enjoyed the day after our night together, wishing me sweet dreams and telling me how much fun the night had been. It had…Read more 125. The Gentleman – part 2

124. The Gentleman (41)

We chatted constantly in the two days before our dinner date.  The Gentleman discussed the FLR paradigm at length, discussing various aspects and checking in with me about how I felt about it. I didn’t know how I felt about it.  I liked the idea of his assured fidelity and my freedom to have other…Read more 124. The Gentleman (41)

123. The Swinger’s Site

The morning after The Mystery Man, I sat and wrote my blog about it. I have been thinking that the casual sex with 30 year olds is probably not the path I want to take again. I want the passion and excitement of The Toolman with somebody who loves me. But I need a man…Read more 123. The Swinger’s Site

121 – The Mystery Man – part 2

I snap chatted to the Seeking Arrangement Guy for days.  While he kept the chat going he did so slowly, revealing little about himself, in increasing increments.  He kept inviting me over to his place, which I wasn’t feeling reckless enough to do.  However I was getting ready to take the plunge and meet him for…Read more 121 – The Mystery Man – part 2

119. So what do I want?

I showed Mika my dating profile recently and she confirmed my concern that it was a little confusing.  I am so unsure of what I want to find, and my profile reflected that.  The photos are attractive (and I am still a little uncomfortable that all the pictures were all either taken by or for…Read more 119. So what do I want?