So I’ve been enjoying my time alone, in no rush to resume the rollercoaster ride of modern dating, and I’ve had a lot of time to think. What if there is nobody for me? Well, surprisingly that thought made me feel better. I’ve spent half my life, since I started to date, alone. And I am…Read more 137. Nobody’s soulmate
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136. Intrusive thoughts
Each morning I wake at about 4:30am, get up to pee, then shuffle back to my still-warm sheets hoping to fall back to sleep instantly. My brain has other ideas. Scores of ideas, in fact. Ideas about work, which has been keeping me successfully distracted for the last month, ideas about things I should be…Read more 136. Intrusive thoughts
133. An email from…..?
I was waiting for a train and flicked through my phone to pass the time. Scanning my emails, I saw a message from a person I didn’t know. Gulp. Could it be Mrs DWHNA/Toolman? My heart raced as I touched the screen, peering at the message sideways, looking for confirmation wanting to be both wrong and…Read more 133. An email from…..?
131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”
Following The Toolman’s recent comments on my last post, I’ve taken some time to think about what I want to say. I was sitting at work when the notification came up on my phone. I started to read and thought, 'what the fuck?' It has been around nine months since The Toolman told me “I…Read more 131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”
129. The Captain (52)
The Captain’s profile on the swinger’s site was much like mine. He seemed to be looking for the same thing as me but I hadn’t paid him any attention, based on his age. I saw he had looked at me a few times and I had acknowledged his “likes” but I was busy responding to…Read more 129. The Captain (52)
127. Superman (47)
He was one of the first guys who messaged me on the Swingers Site. We talked easily and I found myself smiling whenever we chatting on text. He was a separated father of four grown kids who lived about thirty minutes away. We discovered many things about each other and I was enjoying an adult conversation…Read more 127. Superman (47)
126. The NoShow (35) and The Mauritian (38)
I matched on a dating app with a 35 year old guy who was a chef on oil rigs. He told me he worked three weeks on the rig, then flew home for a three week break, during which time he helped out a friend who owned a restaurant. He was strange on our chats, but…Read more 126. The NoShow (35) and The Mauritian (38)
125. The Gentleman – part 2
I knew it wasn’t right. And I knew this was going to hurt him. And it made me feel like shit. The Gentleman had sent me a couple of texts, hoping I’d enjoyed the day after our night together, wishing me sweet dreams and telling me how much fun the night had been. It had…Read more 125. The Gentleman – part 2
124. The Gentleman (41)
We chatted constantly in the two days before our dinner date. The Gentleman discussed the FLR paradigm at length, discussing various aspects and checking in with me about how I felt about it. I didn’t know how I felt about it. I liked the idea of his assured fidelity and my freedom to have other…Read more 124. The Gentleman (41)
123. The Swinger’s Site
The morning after The Mystery Man, I sat and wrote my blog about it. I have been thinking that the casual sex with 30 year olds is probably not the path I want to take again. I want the passion and excitement of The Toolman with somebody who loves me. But I need a man…Read more 123. The Swinger’s Site
I may have over corrected 