142. The Captain returns…continued

I expected to hear from The Captain all day on Monday, and my girlfriends checked in all day long to find out if he had called. He did not. On Tuesday I had enough waiting and took control, sending him a message. “Hi there.  Do you have some time to chat today?" “Sorry busy atm…I’ll…Read more 142. The Captain returns…continued

138. Conversations with chuckleheads

So here we go again.  I decided to sign up to the swingers site I had used to meet The Captain, and after a thorough and fruitless search for both him and The Toolman, I created my profile. I have a suspicion that The Captain already had someone else lined up when we split, or…Read more 138. Conversations with chuckleheads

137. Nobody’s soulmate

So I’ve been enjoying my time alone, in no rush to resume the rollercoaster ride of modern dating, and I’ve had a lot of time to think. What if there is nobody for me?  Well, surprisingly that thought made me feel better.  I’ve spent half my life, since I started to date, alone. And I am…Read more 137. Nobody’s soulmate

136. Intrusive thoughts

Each morning I wake at about 4:30am, get up to pee, then shuffle back to my still-warm sheets hoping to fall back to sleep instantly.  My brain has other ideas.  Scores of ideas, in fact. Ideas about work, which has been keeping me successfully distracted for the last month, ideas about things I should be…Read more 136. Intrusive thoughts

131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”

Following The Toolman’s recent comments on my last post, I’ve taken some time to think about what I want to say. I was sitting at work when the notification came up on my phone.  I started to read and thought, 'what the fuck?' It has been around nine months since The Toolman told me “I…Read more 131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”

125. The Gentleman – part 2

I knew it wasn’t right.  And I knew this was going to hurt him.  And it made me feel like shit. The Gentleman had sent me a couple of texts, hoping I’d enjoyed the day after our night together, wishing me sweet dreams and telling me how much fun the night had been. It had…Read more 125. The Gentleman – part 2

124. The Gentleman (41)

We chatted constantly in the two days before our dinner date.  The Gentleman discussed the FLR paradigm at length, discussing various aspects and checking in with me about how I felt about it. I didn’t know how I felt about it.  I liked the idea of his assured fidelity and my freedom to have other…Read more 124. The Gentleman (41)

123. The Swinger’s Site

The morning after The Mystery Man, I sat and wrote my blog about it. I have been thinking that the casual sex with 30 year olds is probably not the path I want to take again. I want the passion and excitement of The Toolman with somebody who loves me. But I need a man…Read more 123. The Swinger’s Site

121 – The Mystery Man – part 2

I snap chatted to the Seeking Arrangement Guy for days.  While he kept the chat going he did so slowly, revealing little about himself, in increasing increments.  He kept inviting me over to his place, which I wasn’t feeling reckless enough to do.  However I was getting ready to take the plunge and meet him for…Read more 121 – The Mystery Man – part 2

120. The Chef’s final installment

Promptly after I sent The Chef my text, he responded. "Hey. First off let me apologize for just dropping off the face of the earth. Has been a pretty strange year. Have spent some time back home as dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer earlier this year and has gone through treatment and we are waiting…Read more 120. The Chef’s final installment