138. Conversations with chuckleheads

So here we go again.  I decided to sign up to the swingers site I had used to meet The Captain, and after a thorough and fruitless search for both him and The Toolman, I created my profile. I have a suspicion that The Captain already had someone else lined up when we split, or…Read more 138. Conversations with chuckleheads

137. Nobody’s soulmate

So I’ve been enjoying my time alone, in no rush to resume the rollercoaster ride of modern dating, and I’ve had a lot of time to think. What if there is nobody for me?  Well, surprisingly that thought made me feel better.  I’ve spent half my life, since I started to date, alone. And I am…Read more 137. Nobody’s soulmate

136. Intrusive thoughts

Each morning I wake at about 4:30am, get up to pee, then shuffle back to my still-warm sheets hoping to fall back to sleep instantly.  My brain has other ideas.  Scores of ideas, in fact. Ideas about work, which has been keeping me successfully distracted for the last month, ideas about things I should be…Read more 136. Intrusive thoughts

131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”

Following The Toolman’s recent comments on my last post, I’ve taken some time to think about what I want to say. I was sitting at work when the notification came up on my phone.  I started to read and thought, 'what the fuck?' It has been around nine months since The Toolman told me “I…Read more 131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”

129. The Captain (52)

The Captain’s profile on the swinger’s site was much like mine.  He seemed to be looking for the same thing as me but I hadn’t paid him any attention, based on his age. I saw he had looked at me a few times and I had acknowledged his “likes” but I was busy responding to…Read more 129. The Captain (52)

128. The Mauritian (part 2)

The Mauritian and I had made tentative plans to catch up over the weekend following our first, quite successful, date. Tentative as in; “Are you free next Saturday?” “Yes.” “We should catch up.  Lets talk during the week.” Translation: “I think you are a nice person and quite fuck-worthy” “Thanks, me too.” “Well if I…Read more 128. The Mauritian (part 2)

127. Superman (47)

He was one of the first guys who messaged me on the Swingers Site. We talked easily and I found myself smiling whenever we chatting on text. He was a separated father of four grown kids who lived about thirty minutes away.  We discovered many things about each other and I was enjoying an adult conversation…Read more 127. Superman (47)

126. The NoShow (35) and The Mauritian (38)

I matched on a dating app with a 35 year old guy who was a chef on oil rigs.  He told me he worked three weeks on the rig, then flew home for a three week break, during which time he helped out a friend who owned a restaurant. He was strange on our chats, but…Read more 126. The NoShow (35) and The Mauritian (38)

125. The Gentleman – part 2

I knew it wasn’t right.  And I knew this was going to hurt him.  And it made me feel like shit. The Gentleman had sent me a couple of texts, hoping I’d enjoyed the day after our night together, wishing me sweet dreams and telling me how much fun the night had been. It had…Read more 125. The Gentleman – part 2

124. The Gentleman (41)

We chatted constantly in the two days before our dinner date.  The Gentleman discussed the FLR paradigm at length, discussing various aspects and checking in with me about how I felt about it. I didn’t know how I felt about it.  I liked the idea of his assured fidelity and my freedom to have other…Read more 124. The Gentleman (41)