133. An email from…..?

I was waiting for a train and flicked through my phone to pass the time. Scanning my emails, I saw a message from a person I didn’t know. Gulp. Could it be Mrs DWHNA/Toolman?  My heart raced as I touched the screen, peering at the message sideways, looking for confirmation wanting to be both wrong and…Read more 133. An email from…..?

131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”

Following The Toolman’s recent comments on my last post, I’ve taken some time to think about what I want to say. I was sitting at work when the notification came up on my phone.  I started to read and thought, 'what the fuck?' It has been around nine months since The Toolman told me “I…Read more 131. “Toolman has commented on your post.”

127. Superman (47)

He was one of the first guys who messaged me on the Swingers Site. We talked easily and I found myself smiling whenever we chatting on text. He was a separated father of four grown kids who lived about thirty minutes away.  We discovered many things about each other and I was enjoying an adult conversation…Read more 127. Superman (47)

126. The NoShow (35) and The Mauritian (38)

I matched on a dating app with a 35 year old guy who was a chef on oil rigs.  He told me he worked three weeks on the rig, then flew home for a three week break, during which time he helped out a friend who owned a restaurant. He was strange on our chats, but…Read more 126. The NoShow (35) and The Mauritian (38)

125. The Gentleman – part 2

I knew it wasn’t right.  And I knew this was going to hurt him.  And it made me feel like shit. The Gentleman had sent me a couple of texts, hoping I’d enjoyed the day after our night together, wishing me sweet dreams and telling me how much fun the night had been. It had…Read more 125. The Gentleman – part 2

124. The Gentleman (41)

We chatted constantly in the two days before our dinner date.  The Gentleman discussed the FLR paradigm at length, discussing various aspects and checking in with me about how I felt about it. I didn’t know how I felt about it.  I liked the idea of his assured fidelity and my freedom to have other…Read more 124. The Gentleman (41)

123. The Swinger’s Site

The morning after The Mystery Man, I sat and wrote my blog about it. I have been thinking that the casual sex with 30 year olds is probably not the path I want to take again. I want the passion and excitement of The Toolman with somebody who loves me. But I need a man…Read more 123. The Swinger’s Site

121 – The Mystery Man – part 2

I snap chatted to the Seeking Arrangement Guy for days.  While he kept the chat going he did so slowly, revealing little about himself, in increasing increments.  He kept inviting me over to his place, which I wasn’t feeling reckless enough to do.  However I was getting ready to take the plunge and meet him for…Read more 121 – The Mystery Man – part 2

120. The Chef’s final installment

Promptly after I sent The Chef my text, he responded. "Hey. First off let me apologize for just dropping off the face of the earth. Has been a pretty strange year. Have spent some time back home as dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer earlier this year and has gone through treatment and we are waiting…Read more 120. The Chef’s final installment

119. So what do I want?

I showed Mika my dating profile recently and she confirmed my concern that it was a little confusing.  I am so unsure of what I want to find, and my profile reflected that.  The photos are attractive (and I am still a little uncomfortable that all the pictures were all either taken by or for…Read more 119. So what do I want?