151. A few months later…

Today I saw my ex-husband on the Swingers website.  Ugh. Apparently, he is looking for anything from a relationship to erotic chat, he enjoys giving oral sex (well that is a lie), giving massages and spanking (thats new).  He says he is “open to exploration and suggestion with the right person”, still can’t spell and…Read more 151. A few months later…

148. The Fisherman and the sex club – part 1

The Fisherman had often mentioned he would love to see me have sex with another man.  He and his ex-wife had a couple of “hot wife” experiences, where another man came over and they role-played a scenario where The Fisherman walked in on his wife with the other guy.  He would watch a while before…Read more 148. The Fisherman and the sex club – part 1

147. Life falters, then goes on

So…without boring you with too much detail, I was admitted to hospital quite suddenly in mid-January with a random infection which made me very, very sick. I spent a week hooked up to intravenous antibiotics, having endless tests, feeling tired and alone.  I wasn’t really feeling up to visitors, and I did have a couple,…Read more 147. Life falters, then goes on

146. The Toolman rises from the dead

So I saw this profile on Tinder.  The name was right, the age was a couple of years younger than the truth and there were no face pictures, just a picture of a guy in a panda suit.  It was not the kind of profile I would ever match with, but the bio sure sounded familiar:…Read more 146. The Toolman rises from the dead

143. The Married Man – part 6

It was late on a Thursday night.  The Fisherman was supposed to come and visit me  but he cancelled with me earlier that day as he was sick.  He was polite and apologetic and, regardless of whether it was true or not, I knew I would see him and his magic wand again. I settled in to…Read more 143. The Married Man – part 6

142. The Captain returns…continued

I expected to hear from The Captain all day on Monday, and my girlfriends checked in all day long to find out if he had called. He did not. On Tuesday I had enough waiting and took control, sending him a message. “Hi there.  Do you have some time to chat today?" “Sorry busy atm…I’ll…Read more 142. The Captain returns…continued

138. Conversations with chuckleheads

So here we go again.  I decided to sign up to the swingers site I had used to meet The Captain, and after a thorough and fruitless search for both him and The Toolman, I created my profile. I have a suspicion that The Captain already had someone else lined up when we split, or…Read more 138. Conversations with chuckleheads

137. Nobody’s soulmate

So I’ve been enjoying my time alone, in no rush to resume the rollercoaster ride of modern dating, and I’ve had a lot of time to think. What if there is nobody for me?  Well, surprisingly that thought made me feel better.  I’ve spent half my life, since I started to date, alone. And I am…Read more 137. Nobody’s soulmate

136. Intrusive thoughts

Each morning I wake at about 4:30am, get up to pee, then shuffle back to my still-warm sheets hoping to fall back to sleep instantly.  My brain has other ideas.  Scores of ideas, in fact. Ideas about work, which has been keeping me successfully distracted for the last month, ideas about things I should be…Read more 136. Intrusive thoughts